Feedback Loop

One of the reasons I haven't written a whole lot about my anxiety is that writing about it can cause it to flare up in a frustrating kind of feedback loop and sometimes I'm just not up for that.

I was just about to write a post, for example, about how my anxiety can trip me up when I'm trying to plan or make decisions but then in starting to think about it my anxiety started to spiral up and I went... you know what?  Not worth writing about right now. 

Because once my anxiety starts spinning (a term I use to describe how it feels to me once I sort of lose control of my calm) it'll find other things to spin about and then I'm in a panic and have to deal with that... which is not very conducive to writing a blog post ya know?

So I'll tell you instead that the rain has really hit us this week.  Heavy rain.  Which makes the days already dark and feel shorter.

But that rain has already been snow in other parts of the province, and significantly so in other provinces.  So, we may be in for one of those winters where the rest of the country kind of glares at Victoria as we try to keep our storm drains clear of leaves so the puddles don't get too deep.